Praha ha ha

(From http://mehavecable.blogspot.com/)

Hi remember me? I used to be the author of this blog. It is 'me' who has cable.

Just keeping in touch... You know, checking in.

Oh, I have news....

The headline is: 'Here I go again'

When one does not have a wife or a family or a defined role in life, one needs to improvise, search for ways of finding happiness, of feeling useful and needed. My way of doing this.... Strange as it may seem, is to head overseas.... For better or worse... Till death do us part.

Recall, in 2004 - I went to Taiwan in my fish-out-of-water experience...

Then in 2006/07 - I did the my-god-I-have-family-here experience in Estonia... Also known as the I-now-understand-my-parents-much-more junket. This was the trip/year of a lifetime for me, for my brother, and eventually for my godmother.

Now... It's 2010 - And it's the Czech Republic.... Prague, actually.

To be honest (and as I've been telling close friends) I don't feel great about going. I'm going as a default, something familiar that has brought wonderful things in the past. It is a choice among less-than-perfect options. Over the last several months since departing (be departed??) my last PM role, I looked at going back to school for various roles, going right back to Project Management -both in and out of the hitech sector, even looked at driving a truck or greyhound bus... But the one thing that has come back to me is that I do like teaching. It's really is the only other thing I have experience in. It can surely be a grind, as any teacher will tell you - but it does hit many thing I do well and I do enjoy it. It always turns me when I'm helping people. The Project Manager role never did that for me (not even close)! And to do this in a phenomenal city like Prague - seems like a good option at this time in my life. I continue to be grateful for things that come me way. I do have reservations though, and at the very top of the list is my aging uncle. I feel selfish and uncaring in taking off like this. But... I do need to live my life ... It's tough to reconcile both ... It's actually gut wrenching. If I was still a PM here in Canada, and still working, then I would not do this. The best I can do is to ensure my uncle's ok, and that we've talking about all possible scenarios before I leave, so when something happens we know what to do. I will be in contact with him weekly from Prague and will be back for Xmas. I'm also prepared come back straight away if the situation warrants it. I'll try to do everything I can to make sure he's ok.

But I still feel like a heartless shmuch.

Such is life sometimes, never a clear path forward.